Sebab Allah tu ada....

Sebab menuntut ilmu tu pun satu jihad kan ? Inshaa Allah. Moga Allah redhai setiap langkah dalam jihad ini ~

Allahu. Kadang kadang ragu ragu jugak mampu ke nak jalani hidup dalam asasi ni. Everything is so packed. Sometimes in a day, ada lecture class, tutorial and lab practical. Penat tu tak payah cakap lah. Tapi bila lalui hari macam ni, automatically akan teringat kata seseorg, Menuntut Ilmu tu Satu Jihad. So jangan berkeluh kesah. Nak berjaya kan ?

Inshaa Allah. Kalau orang tanya, okay tak UNIMAS ? and jawapan sama untuk masa ni, "OKAY. Tengah sesuaikan diri" Yes. Im in process of adapting with the current situation and environment. Tak mudah tak susah. Its okay, the beginning is always the hardest kan ? So keep going >.<

Dalam sebulan ni. Macam macam jugak la benda jadi. Tapi alhamdulillah, I managed to handle them. Thanks to those who have helped me. Homesick ? Hmm memang every year pon homesick. Haha. Sebenarnya banyak je mission failed since masuk sini. And everything pon sebab diri sendiri jugak. What a sad life kan. Inshaa Allah, I would try  again. So doa doa kan. Hehe

Semoga saya kuat hadapi semuanya.. 

Allah dah bagi yang terbaik kan. So keep going dear Self ~

Its gonna be a long journey to explore,

Its gonna take some time,

Its gonna take the real you to deal with it,

Its gonna be hard perhaps, 

Its gonna freak you out,

Its gonna be something you never  expected for,

But trust youself, 

In the end it will give you what you really wish,

It will lead you to the sunshine you are looking for,

It will take you to the peak of mountain you are climbing to,

It will be only between you and yourself,

And sometimes being strong and following the flow are the best choices you will ever have,

So for the mean time, Keep going ~ Continue climbing~ it will be wonderful in the end ~

Eventually.. Someday Somehow, you will tell yourself, I had been there and now I reach them..

Pesan pada hati, Istiqamah lah. Jalan istiqamah tu memang payah tapi akhirnya kau akan rasa manisnya sebuah penghijrahan ~

Moga Allah meredhainya ;')

Coretan dari bumi UNIMAS

Assalamualaikum.

April May June~ and its July since my last entry..
Refer to the title above, lol. Guess what, Saya kini berada di BUMI UNIMAS.
alhamdulillah. Perancangan Allah tu terbaik kan. Terlepas satu, satu lagi.
Apa yang Ayah cakap, totally true. Allah tu dengar setiap doa hambaNya. Its all about cepat atau lambat sahaja. Inshaa Allah a step closer to the dreams.
I cant hold my promise yang nak update blog selalu tu. Within these 3 months, banyak benda jadi. Banyak sangat. Tapi janji Allah kan setiap kesusahan tu ada kemudahan.. Alhamdulillah.
Hari tu ada update pasal pegi ujian kelayakan calon guru tu kan. Then Alhamdulillah, I was called for an interview untuk course Bahasa Inggeris. One of my fav subject. Tapi then Allah tu perancang terbaik kan, I couldnt make it as that time was our really hard time, My grandpa just passed away. Nak gerak anywhere tu memang susah, Al Fatihah untukmu Kik. I keep on telling myself, ada hikmah pasti ada yang lebih baik menanti. Mungkin tak ada rezeki dekat sana. 
But then few days before, once the kemasukan ke matrikulasi was announced, gladly to know, that my name was in the list of Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan's new students batch 1516. and its still in science stream. Alhamdulillah. Time sedih2 macam tu pun, Allah hadirkan nikmat. Subhanallah. and that time memang dah sebulat hati I decided to go for that matriculation program, It was out on 13th April but the online registration would only be opened on 5th May. and the best thing is, my dad was very happy to hear that. He said, Alhamdulillah. Ada peluang tu ambil kedoktoran atau farmasi. I smiled to him but inside me, there was a heavy tears. Im not into that dad. You know right how bad my Biology was. I couldnt make it. Bila kawan2 tanya nak ambil modul apa nanti dekat matrik, confuse plus takut plus risau. Sebab kalau ikutkan diri sendiri memang nak ambil modul 2, modul yang no biology, tapi family especially ayah dan seangkatannya surely suruh ambil modul 1. Peningnya time tu >,< And guess what I didnt prepare anything pon untuk masuk matrik. Haha
a few weeks passed, UPU result announced. Alhamdulillah. never expected it. I got Asasi Sains Fizikal program in UNIMAS, one of my dream university. See. ada hikmah tak pegi interview IPG hari tu even tak pasti pun dapat atau tak. Haha. Again, I was in dilemma. Luckily masa untuk register online untuk UNIMAS ni lama.Ada la dalam 3 minggu. Bagi student fikir kot mana nak masuk. Within that 3 weeks jugak la I dalam dilemma. Some said, you better go for asasi. while the others said, matriculation is way better. Istikharah la jawapannya. Tapi gerak hati kuat untuk pegi asasi. its sains fizikal, an easy way to reach my dreams insha Allah. and its clearly stated Sains FIZIKAL  so tak payah peningkan kepala risau tak boleh bawak Biology apa semua. I made my decision and justify my reason to my family, susah lah jugak time tu, I felt like crying everytime kena fikir pasal buat keputusan ni. Tapi once a family, forever will be a family kan. Sepahit mana pun kenyataan yang kita buat, they will accept it completely. Alhamdulillah, Nikmat terbesar Allah bagi, strong family bond. Lepas itu ini, in the end, diorang jugak banyak tolong. And after so much I've been through, alhamdulillah, and now Im here people, UNIMAS ~ UnimasKuGemilang katanyaa.
Datang sini, lagi sekali kekuatan tu teruji. I was alone. Kawan sekolah, kawan yayasan sabah, kawan rapat or kawan2 sorang pun tiada yang dapat sini. tapi kan janji Allah, dalam setiap kesusahan itu ada kemudahan. taklah sorang sangat pun. A friend whom I met during ujian kelayakan calon guru that day pon dapat the same place, same course and now she is my roommate ~ Allah is the best planner kan. Alhamdulillah, " Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang mana kau dustakan ? " Allahu.
Banyak kan benda yang jadi. Some bitter but mostly its sweet. Dah sebulan pun sini :)

Tapi kan, hidup mana yang tiada ujian, As what the philosophy said, if there is no ups and downs in your life, it means you are dead. College life ~ mesti ramai kan yang pernah dan sedang melaluinya. Doakan saya moga kuat untuk melaluinya. Moga hati tak terpesong. Moga niat masih betul pada landasannya. Moga berjaya mengatasi semua cabaran. Moga istiqamah dalam mencari redhaNya.

Allah bimbing saya.. :(

The new me.

Assalamualaikum, Hello Guys.

It has been a while kan I didnt update anything. Almost three years la kan, Haha,But then, back to the purpose, why I created and upened this blog, It was only because I wanted to try something new. Almaklumlah dulu kan, obses sangat dengan social network semua ni. See, how cultured shock I was.
Tetiba malam ni, rasa macam nak menulis dan mengekspress sesuatu via writing. If I am not mistaken, I created this blog, when I was in form 3, and people, I am 18 now ! Haha. How fast time flies kan. Pejam celik, I've completed my high school, Inshaa Allah. Entry dalam blog ni is on 2012, my PMR year,and now, SPM pun dah lepas, the result is okay la. Talking about the result, I deserved for it. Memang tak study carefully pun. Time form 4, kemain lagi, HONEYMOON, then bila naik form 5, baru nak menyesal la apa la. Teruknyaa. But one thing for sure, tak menyesal pun dapat result macam tu, frust tu memang la. I deserved for it kan. Allah nak bagi peringatan kot, sebab kalau kita betul betul nak berjaya, kita mesti prepare awal awal and doa, tuntutan agama jangan tinggal. I do admit, semua berpunca dari my own behavior. Tapi alhamdulillah, Inshaa Allah, dengan izin Allah, dengan result tu, nak gapai cita cita tu masih ada harapan. Inshaa Allah. Its already April kan, and Inshaa Allah, keputusan semakan kemasukan ke Matrikulasi, will available on 13th APRIL, 3 days away. Asyik berdebarje ni,dapat masuk ke tak. Haha. Astaghfirullah. Bersangka baik la dengan perancangan Allah. Dia bagi yang terbaik untuk hambaNya kan. Kalau tak dapat, inshaa Allah ada tempat yang lebih baik.

Sekarang ni, to be really honest, I still tak tahu arah mana hala tuju untuk capai matlamat, Confuse. Nak pilih bidang ni, ada yang cakap tak okay, pilih bidang tu, tak minat pulak. Haha, Tapi apa apa pun, tunggu penempatan kat mana mana dulu. Kat sana dah boleh decide kot. Sebab hati kita ni berbolak balik kan. And one thing that I hold since forever whenever Iam forced tor 
 do something is, firman Allah dalam surah Al Baqarah, "BOLEH JADI KAMU MEMBENCI SESUATU SEDANGKAN IA BAIK BAGIMU, DAN BOLEH JADI KAMU MENYUKAI SESUATU PADAAHAL IA BURUK BAGIMU. ALLAH MENGETAHUINYA SEDANGKAN KAM TIDAK"
and on 7th April I went for UKCG di IPG Kampus Gaya KK, actually my mum yang suruh apply and tak sangka pulak boleh dapat. Hari tu memang tak nak pegi pun,tai tengok Mama macam beria sangat, then I decided to go.Honest talk, memang tak minat pun jadi cikgu. Tapi kalau Allah dah tetapkan my place is there, alhamdulillah. Maybbe He Said, it is the way for you so that you can do good deeds to other people. insha Allah kalau dapat and hala tuju dah jelas, definitely, akan pergi. Inshaa Allah.

Should stop till now. Semoga ketemu on the next entry. Inshaa Allah lepas ni akan rajin update at least a month once.Haha.
Good Night.

LONG JOURNEY TO GO