Thank You Kakak Housemate ❤️

Assalamualaikum to everyone who is reading this. Hoping is everyone is in good condition, inside out. 

I was about to write yesterday, but something came, and I decided to just stop there. Will post it later. 

So, Just like the title for today's entry, I will write something about it, and the greatest lesson I learned.

So the story started when, I was sitting in the living room, preparing myself for the evening's paper, listening to music from my laptop. Around 12.45pm, one of my housemate, came to me, and talked to me nicely that she wants to borrow my laptop, as she need to print her Final Year Project (her laptop was rosak). At first, ragu ragu jugak utk pinjamkan since it was our first time talking to each other. Yes I admit, we never have even a short conversation to each other in the house since everyone is "living" in our own rooms, almost everything we done it inside the rooms, and all of my housemate (the senior ones) are final year students. They have been so busy with their own schedule so does us, the first year students. So we did not have many chances to get to know each other, setakat senyum2 bila terserempak tu ada lah. But still we live peacefully, tak pernah pun bermasam muka even once. We understand each others.

So back to yesterday's story, as I know that FYP is so important, one of the most important aspect to graduate, I decided to lend her my laptop. (Biarpun ada ragu sikit, hahaha). Within 20 mins, she returned it. Nothing happened tho. Hahaha

And just now, I was sitting in the living room again, she came and gave me this.

"Thankyou for lending me yr laptop yesterday. You saved me" And I was like,

Benda kecil ja pun. Haha. I only did what I should. And that words too, mean something to me. Senior was saying it to a junior 😂😂.

So what I learned is that, BE KIND BE KIND BE KIND TO EVERYONE you meet. Be kind even if you know, you are not. At least try. You never know, how your single favor, help them.

Simple gift, but it brings thousand meanings to me, 

Thank you kakak housemate ❤️

Thankyou jugak kepada semua housemates, for being the best, (even if we live in our own world) but I prefer it that way.

Semoga jumpa housemate yg baik2 jugak utk next sem (biarpun saya tak baik 😭)

Alhamdulillah, Allah pertemukan dengan orang yg baik baik throughout this sem. Hoping for the best too for the remaining semester. (Well I still have 7 semester huhuhu)

Should stop till now. Inshaa Allah will be back later for the undone "entry" yesterday hehe. 

BE KIND, SPREAD KINDNESS, Allah counts every single one of them ❤️

First day of the first sem final exam

Hai assalamualaikum to whoever is reading this. Feeling good today? Hopefully you are! Semoga kita sentiasa berada di bawah rahmat Allah s.w.t dalam setiap apa pun yang kita lakukan. Inshaa Allah.

So today, I'll write about what happens to my first day of first sem final examination here in UNIMAS. Oh ya, today's paper was Academic English 2. and it screwed me up a bit jugak lah. The first part, which is the multiple choice questions (MCQs) was okay, I managed to answer them, confidently. But then, when it came to the 2nd part, the discussion essay, totally screwed up, I didnt have any idea on the points. It is a discussion essay, where we students have to provide at least two points for the pros side and 2 for the cons. The essay was about "plastic bags should be banned? Discuss." I know it was actually an easy topic, but simply because, I didnt read much (sedangkan our lecturer dah bagi few tips) so I was lacking on ideas. Im pretty sure, the lecturer will be dizzy reading my essay, I didnt have any strong points. Whatever it is, the test has ended, nothing more left, except for one, DOA. This is the time to pray hard, the hardest. Semoga nanti yang datang adalah yg baik baik sahaja inshaa Allah. either it turns good or the other way round, pastinya itu yang terbaik. But for now, lets rely our biggest hope to the Almighty, He knows best. But to be really honest, I didnt prepare much for this subject because Im just too busy focusing on the engineering core subjects, the killer ones I should say. I can conclude that, my first day of final examination for the 1st sem, didnt turn the way I expected it hehe. But, no one to be blamed though, its my own fault, for not studying smart, for not sleeping early last night which then lead me to headache. and that one thing, monthly illness haha, more or less, one of the reason, the most invisible reason why I couldnt make it so much today. :P, but again, for the time being, let's pray hard for the best! :)

and today,I still cant move on from yesterday's stories on the social medias. The stories inspired me so much in many aspects. Really. 
What I have learned that, kekuatan yang sebenar benarnya hanya datang daripada Allah yg maha kuat. Pinta lah kekuatan daripadaNya, when things are getting hard sometimes, dan kuat lah kerana Allah. Yakin lah dengan pertolonganNya, yakin dengan segala takdir yg telah Dia tetapkan without questioning why. 

Things will be getting harder sometimes, especially in this phase, fasa menuju kedewasaan. The main reason is because we are "playing" with emotions. Even the smallest things may lead to a major problem when emotions are included! But then, this is the right time to turn to the Creator, seek for guidance to the right path, seek strength to control our emotions, and seek everything you need! Dia maha mendengar, maha pemurah dan maha pengasih. Who else can treat us such ways except than Him? Sama sama muhasabah diri.

Perjalanan ini singkat dan mungkin ada masanya agak sukar, semoga kita mampu laluinya dengan Allah sebagai sumber segala galanya lagi lagi dalam menjalani kehidupan sebagai seorang remaja dan pelajar. We are too young and know nothing for certain things, so make this phase as a turning point to be better. Teruslah berusaha berbuat dan menyebarkan kebaikan. Jangan sia siakan masa muda kita. Hehe :)

Should stop now. I have exam for TITAS and Basic of social science on Friday and Saturday. Mohon didoakan agar dipermudahkan. Moga rahmat dan pertolongan Allah itu ada inshaa Allah.

Till then.
regards.

sekadar renungan bersama

2016

Assalamualaikum everyone. Hihi. Hope that everyone is in a pink of health. and semoga semua ada hari hari yang cukup membahagiakan. In shaa Allah :)

Couldnt say much for this new entry, since this is the finals weeks. I need to focus to all the papers or should I say all the killer subjects. Rabbi yassir wala tu'asir. but, still I want to spend for like 15-20 minutes to write today. 

In my previous entry,  I have mentioned that now, I was in UNIMAS right and was doing my foundation studies. and alhamdulillah, Im still in UNIMAS  now, saat ini hehe. but Im no longer a pre-university student, now Im officially an undergraduate student who is taking Civil Engineering. Ya, civil engineering. Im so grateful for being able to put myself in this course, oh no, should be so thankful to the Creator, Allah, for giving me the chance to be in this field. So much of blessings from Him, and I couldnt ask for more. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. 

Civil engineering was never cross my mind even once, because Im so addicted to the chemical engineering, lol tak sedar diri, but it was during my schooldays, and everything changed during my foundation studies, memang susah nak bawak chemistry, susah sangat2, plus with my not so excellent results, so I decided to take civil. Inshaa Allah ini yang terbaik dengan izinNya. 

Why Im so desperate to write tonight, sedangkan I have an exam tomorrow, first paper for final exam, first semester, first year, haha, its just that I want to 'appreciate' my mood to write tonight yg memang jarang2 muncul since Im a busy young lady hehe. And Im so inspired to write tonight because of someone, something that have been circulating in the internet today. Im so inspired with the stories, the love between them and just everything. but I will desecribe more about that later of course after my finals. 

so, that's all for now. till then~
doakan kami semua dapat jawab dengan tenang tau. 

all the best everyone, may all our hardworks pay off.

regards.

Sebab Allah tu ada....

Sebab menuntut ilmu tu pun satu jihad kan ? Inshaa Allah. Moga Allah redhai setiap langkah dalam jihad ini ~

Allahu. Kadang kadang ragu ragu jugak mampu ke nak jalani hidup dalam asasi ni. Everything is so packed. Sometimes in a day, ada lecture class, tutorial and lab practical. Penat tu tak payah cakap lah. Tapi bila lalui hari macam ni, automatically akan teringat kata seseorg, Menuntut Ilmu tu Satu Jihad. So jangan berkeluh kesah. Nak berjaya kan ?

Inshaa Allah. Kalau orang tanya, okay tak UNIMAS ? and jawapan sama untuk masa ni, "OKAY. Tengah sesuaikan diri" Yes. Im in process of adapting with the current situation and environment. Tak mudah tak susah. Its okay, the beginning is always the hardest kan ? So keep going >.<

Dalam sebulan ni. Macam macam jugak la benda jadi. Tapi alhamdulillah, I managed to handle them. Thanks to those who have helped me. Homesick ? Hmm memang every year pon homesick. Haha. Sebenarnya banyak je mission failed since masuk sini. And everything pon sebab diri sendiri jugak. What a sad life kan. Inshaa Allah, I would try  again. So doa doa kan. Hehe

Semoga saya kuat hadapi semuanya.. 

Allah dah bagi yang terbaik kan. So keep going dear Self ~

Its gonna be a long journey to explore,

Its gonna take some time,

Its gonna take the real you to deal with it,

Its gonna be hard perhaps, 

Its gonna freak you out,

Its gonna be something you never  expected for,

But trust youself, 

In the end it will give you what you really wish,

It will lead you to the sunshine you are looking for,

It will take you to the peak of mountain you are climbing to,

It will be only between you and yourself,

And sometimes being strong and following the flow are the best choices you will ever have,

So for the mean time, Keep going ~ Continue climbing~ it will be wonderful in the end ~

Eventually.. Someday Somehow, you will tell yourself, I had been there and now I reach them..

Pesan pada hati, Istiqamah lah. Jalan istiqamah tu memang payah tapi akhirnya kau akan rasa manisnya sebuah penghijrahan ~

Moga Allah meredhainya ;')

Coretan dari bumi UNIMAS

Assalamualaikum.

April May June~ and its July since my last entry..
Refer to the title above, lol. Guess what, Saya kini berada di BUMI UNIMAS.
alhamdulillah. Perancangan Allah tu terbaik kan. Terlepas satu, satu lagi.
Apa yang Ayah cakap, totally true. Allah tu dengar setiap doa hambaNya. Its all about cepat atau lambat sahaja. Inshaa Allah a step closer to the dreams.
I cant hold my promise yang nak update blog selalu tu. Within these 3 months, banyak benda jadi. Banyak sangat. Tapi janji Allah kan setiap kesusahan tu ada kemudahan.. Alhamdulillah.
Hari tu ada update pasal pegi ujian kelayakan calon guru tu kan. Then Alhamdulillah, I was called for an interview untuk course Bahasa Inggeris. One of my fav subject. Tapi then Allah tu perancang terbaik kan, I couldnt make it as that time was our really hard time, My grandpa just passed away. Nak gerak anywhere tu memang susah, Al Fatihah untukmu Kik. I keep on telling myself, ada hikmah pasti ada yang lebih baik menanti. Mungkin tak ada rezeki dekat sana. 
But then few days before, once the kemasukan ke matrikulasi was announced, gladly to know, that my name was in the list of Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan's new students batch 1516. and its still in science stream. Alhamdulillah. Time sedih2 macam tu pun, Allah hadirkan nikmat. Subhanallah. and that time memang dah sebulat hati I decided to go for that matriculation program, It was out on 13th April but the online registration would only be opened on 5th May. and the best thing is, my dad was very happy to hear that. He said, Alhamdulillah. Ada peluang tu ambil kedoktoran atau farmasi. I smiled to him but inside me, there was a heavy tears. Im not into that dad. You know right how bad my Biology was. I couldnt make it. Bila kawan2 tanya nak ambil modul apa nanti dekat matrik, confuse plus takut plus risau. Sebab kalau ikutkan diri sendiri memang nak ambil modul 2, modul yang no biology, tapi family especially ayah dan seangkatannya surely suruh ambil modul 1. Peningnya time tu >,< And guess what I didnt prepare anything pon untuk masuk matrik. Haha
a few weeks passed, UPU result announced. Alhamdulillah. never expected it. I got Asasi Sains Fizikal program in UNIMAS, one of my dream university. See. ada hikmah tak pegi interview IPG hari tu even tak pasti pun dapat atau tak. Haha. Again, I was in dilemma. Luckily masa untuk register online untuk UNIMAS ni lama.Ada la dalam 3 minggu. Bagi student fikir kot mana nak masuk. Within that 3 weeks jugak la I dalam dilemma. Some said, you better go for asasi. while the others said, matriculation is way better. Istikharah la jawapannya. Tapi gerak hati kuat untuk pegi asasi. its sains fizikal, an easy way to reach my dreams insha Allah. and its clearly stated Sains FIZIKAL  so tak payah peningkan kepala risau tak boleh bawak Biology apa semua. I made my decision and justify my reason to my family, susah lah jugak time tu, I felt like crying everytime kena fikir pasal buat keputusan ni. Tapi once a family, forever will be a family kan. Sepahit mana pun kenyataan yang kita buat, they will accept it completely. Alhamdulillah, Nikmat terbesar Allah bagi, strong family bond. Lepas itu ini, in the end, diorang jugak banyak tolong. And after so much I've been through, alhamdulillah, and now Im here people, UNIMAS ~ UnimasKuGemilang katanyaa.
Datang sini, lagi sekali kekuatan tu teruji. I was alone. Kawan sekolah, kawan yayasan sabah, kawan rapat or kawan2 sorang pun tiada yang dapat sini. tapi kan janji Allah, dalam setiap kesusahan itu ada kemudahan. taklah sorang sangat pun. A friend whom I met during ujian kelayakan calon guru that day pon dapat the same place, same course and now she is my roommate ~ Allah is the best planner kan. Alhamdulillah, " Maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang mana kau dustakan ? " Allahu.
Banyak kan benda yang jadi. Some bitter but mostly its sweet. Dah sebulan pun sini :)

Tapi kan, hidup mana yang tiada ujian, As what the philosophy said, if there is no ups and downs in your life, it means you are dead. College life ~ mesti ramai kan yang pernah dan sedang melaluinya. Doakan saya moga kuat untuk melaluinya. Moga hati tak terpesong. Moga niat masih betul pada landasannya. Moga berjaya mengatasi semua cabaran. Moga istiqamah dalam mencari redhaNya.

Allah bimbing saya.. :(

The new me.

Assalamualaikum, Hello Guys.

It has been a while kan I didnt update anything. Almost three years la kan, Haha,But then, back to the purpose, why I created and upened this blog, It was only because I wanted to try something new. Almaklumlah dulu kan, obses sangat dengan social network semua ni. See, how cultured shock I was.
Tetiba malam ni, rasa macam nak menulis dan mengekspress sesuatu via writing. If I am not mistaken, I created this blog, when I was in form 3, and people, I am 18 now ! Haha. How fast time flies kan. Pejam celik, I've completed my high school, Inshaa Allah. Entry dalam blog ni is on 2012, my PMR year,and now, SPM pun dah lepas, the result is okay la. Talking about the result, I deserved for it. Memang tak study carefully pun. Time form 4, kemain lagi, HONEYMOON, then bila naik form 5, baru nak menyesal la apa la. Teruknyaa. But one thing for sure, tak menyesal pun dapat result macam tu, frust tu memang la. I deserved for it kan. Allah nak bagi peringatan kot, sebab kalau kita betul betul nak berjaya, kita mesti prepare awal awal and doa, tuntutan agama jangan tinggal. I do admit, semua berpunca dari my own behavior. Tapi alhamdulillah, Inshaa Allah, dengan izin Allah, dengan result tu, nak gapai cita cita tu masih ada harapan. Inshaa Allah. Its already April kan, and Inshaa Allah, keputusan semakan kemasukan ke Matrikulasi, will available on 13th APRIL, 3 days away. Asyik berdebarje ni,dapat masuk ke tak. Haha. Astaghfirullah. Bersangka baik la dengan perancangan Allah. Dia bagi yang terbaik untuk hambaNya kan. Kalau tak dapat, inshaa Allah ada tempat yang lebih baik.

Sekarang ni, to be really honest, I still tak tahu arah mana hala tuju untuk capai matlamat, Confuse. Nak pilih bidang ni, ada yang cakap tak okay, pilih bidang tu, tak minat pulak. Haha, Tapi apa apa pun, tunggu penempatan kat mana mana dulu. Kat sana dah boleh decide kot. Sebab hati kita ni berbolak balik kan. And one thing that I hold since forever whenever Iam forced tor 
 do something is, firman Allah dalam surah Al Baqarah, "BOLEH JADI KAMU MEMBENCI SESUATU SEDANGKAN IA BAIK BAGIMU, DAN BOLEH JADI KAMU MENYUKAI SESUATU PADAAHAL IA BURUK BAGIMU. ALLAH MENGETAHUINYA SEDANGKAN KAM TIDAK"
and on 7th April I went for UKCG di IPG Kampus Gaya KK, actually my mum yang suruh apply and tak sangka pulak boleh dapat. Hari tu memang tak nak pegi pun,tai tengok Mama macam beria sangat, then I decided to go.Honest talk, memang tak minat pun jadi cikgu. Tapi kalau Allah dah tetapkan my place is there, alhamdulillah. Maybbe He Said, it is the way for you so that you can do good deeds to other people. insha Allah kalau dapat and hala tuju dah jelas, definitely, akan pergi. Inshaa Allah.

Should stop till now. Semoga ketemu on the next entry. Inshaa Allah lepas ni akan rajin update at least a month once.Haha.
Good Night.

LONG JOURNEY TO GO